It aint easy.

Writing every freaking day this year is way harder for me than I ever imagined. I love to write, and honestly it comes pretty easily for me, but for some reason lately I have been feeling guilty and can not bring myself to blog. I know that there are more productive things to do in my life than just talk about myself. I have been really trying to get my ass a job, start eating healthier, and enroll into school. I’m honestly not very happy with my current predicaments in life, but I haven’t really tried to really change it, untill now. I decided that instead of trying to think of really clever things to write, I’ll write about me as a person, and what got me here. Oh gosh, just typing that out is making me nervous. This may or may not be the most boring blogs for the next couple of weeks, we will just have to see.

A reason it’s so hard for me to blog everyday, is that I have a family member that i have not seen in 9 months and  I should really be writing to them instead of telling strangers my life story. I don’t do well with distance, and i don’t do well with missing people and writing my emotions towards them out on paper. I find it really difficult to even produce words for my letters at time. But honestly, this blogging stuff really helps me get through things. I just listen to some good tunes and let my fingers take over on the keyboard. I don’t really talk about that personal of things either, mostly me just blabbing on and on my mundane every day events. I swear this week I will start busting out a lot more blogs, and it will definitely be more consistent.

Believe what you will

I definitely believe that things happen for a reason, I also believe things don’t happen for reasons too.

 

“Have your adventures, make your mistakes, and choose your friends poorly — all these make for great stories.”
— Chuck Palahniuk

Talk Talk Talk.

So I started reading “The Importance Of  Being Earnest”  by Oscar Wilde last night. I’ve never read the screen play, but I’ve seen the movie. So far, I really enjoy it; I like the fact that since it’s a play, it’s so much easier to read. I haven’t read a full book in months, so I figured i would start with something easy to read and not very long. I’ll probably finish it before the weekend starts. I’m really starting to try to read books more. I miss being able to escape from my brain into a good read, it’s very relaxing and keeps my imagination alive. I’m glad I started with this one, I love Oscar Wilde, he’s honestly brilliant.

Read this book!

 

After I finish ‘The Importance Of Being Earnest’ I’m going to start re-reading some of Author, Chuck  Palahniuk’s books. He is one of the most prolific writers right now, most of his novels are eclectic, and off beat, yet intellectually genius. I recommend reading one of his books, if you are open to more twisted, out there concepts, and ideas. My favorite books of his are: Fight Club, Choke, and Lullaby, I would recommend starting with Fight Club.

My new comfort food/sweet tooth fixer is ‘Hershey’s kisses’ peanut butter and peanuts. mm yummy! I was in a slight feud with one of my ex boyfriend’s and I was stressing out about the fact that I was stressed out about talking to him. I instantly wanted something sweet, and satisfying to munch on. The light bulb came on and I grabbed the kisses, peanut butter, and peanuts, I am completely content now.

Moving on… I’ve been really interested in photography for a while. Yes, the above picture is one that I took, no it’s not good but I’m not a pro. I think it’s fascinating and I’ve always loved being able to capture a moment that will never happen again. I see something so beautiful in that, but I’ve never really had a good enough camera to play with. I have some “photography” but I am by no means a photographer, and I don’t aspire to be one. I just think it’s therapeutic for me, much like writing is. I’ll probably post some of my photos on here, I already have a few up. I’m hoping to get a new camera in the next few months, so i’ll definately be posting more up if they are any good. :)

Gettin in the groove

Baby Mercy

 

I’m getting in shape, being more productive, and being healthier. Lately things have been chaotic in my household, and I know I’m not the only one that feels that way. It’s a new year, and i’m going to make this year kick ass, in order to do that, i am getting my shit together and having fun while i do it.

I went on a music rampage and my music library currently consists over 1200 artists. I’m working on more, and would love new music in my life! :) I’ll be making a list of my favorite songs/artists as of this week. haha, I swear my tastes and song obsessions change basically from mood to mood, but i could always use more music. Lately my taste has been more’indie’ genre i guess. I’m not too good with mastering the genre names yet. To give an idea, i lately have been loving the following: Band of Horses, Grateful Dead,Bob Dylan, MGMT, Fleet Foxes, Regina Spector, Discovery, and for some reason, Katy Perry. Please give me more music to listen too, I can never get enough!!

 We have 3 dogs in our house hold and 2 cats. The cats usually sleep out in the living room or with me. The 3 dogs sleep in my sister’s room, two sleep in kennels and one sleeps on the couch in their room or floor. I decided to take the youngest of the three dogs (Mercy) and have her kennel in my room and sleep with me at night. She cries alot because she hates the kennel, so i figured if she sleeps in bed with me at night not only will i not be lonely, but I feel like it will be easier for me to train her. With all the animals and comotion that go on in our not so big household, it’s hard to train her anything. She’s about a year and a half old and we found her a few months ago. We think she’s a grey hound/ pitbull mix, and she’s soooo cute, but she is devious, and stubborn. I hope me having more one on one time will help train her, and also help calm her. Seeing as she’s a puppy still, she’s pretty hyper, not fixed, and she’s a pretty tall dog.