Chaos ahead

My last post about music, made me want to write more about music. I feel like I left so many good songs out, and in reality I would need much more than one cd to last me being stranded on a desert island. Not to mention, would I have enough battery life to last on a portable cd player? I really don’t think there are just random outlet’s on a desert island for me to simply plug my boom box in. Just sayin…that one cd wouldn’t even last very long if you don’t have an endless battery supply.

Honestly, good tunes get me through pretty much everything. I spend more time with music than I do with actual people. I have so many memories shared through music. Some songs make me want to bawl my eyes out, and some songs make me want to get up and dance instantly. The power of music amazes me, and goes right through my veins every time a good beat comes on.

Soooo basically with this babble about music, I have decided that at the end or begining of each of my posts I will post a song on here that I currently love. I would love some song/band suggestions as well!! :)


stranded with good tunes.

Today’s topic of the day, sparked my interest for sure. “If stranded on a desert island, and could only bring one music album with you, which would it be? What is it about this music that never gets old for you?” I couldn’t just pick one specific album, from one artist/band, I decided instead to make a mix cd of the music that would get me through being stranded alone in the heat.

My Stranded on the desert island mix cd:


1. Ramblin Man- The Allman Brothers Band

2.Fuel- Ani Difranco

3. Something to believe in- Aqualung

4.Our swords- Band of Horses

5. Help!- The Beetles

6. Vienna- Billy Joel

7. Mr. Tambourine Man- Bob Dylan

8. Skinny Love- Bon Iver

9. Osaka Loop Line- Discovery

10. Seaside- The Kooks

11. The Prayer- Kid Cudi

12. Until We Bleed- Kleerup

13. Aint too proud to beg- The Temptations

14. Coney Island- Good Old War

15. Fast Car- Tracey Chapman

16. Uncle John’s Band- Grateful Dead

17. Mykonos- Fleet Foxes

18. Piece of me- Briteny Spears

19. Rock God- Selena Gomez

20. Firework- Katy Perry


This music never gets old to me because every one of these songs has some sort of meaning to me. Some of them have amazing lyrics, and some have a good beat. I just know if I was stranded anywhere, I’d be pretty golden with this mix of music.

It aint easy.

Writing every freaking day this year is way harder for me than I ever imagined. I love to write, and honestly it comes pretty easily for me, but for some reason lately I have been feeling guilty and can not bring myself to blog. I know that there are more productive things to do in my life than just talk about myself. I have been really trying to get my ass a job, start eating healthier, and enroll into school. I’m honestly not very happy with my current predicaments in life, but I haven’t really tried to really change it, untill now. I decided that instead of trying to think of really clever things to write, I’ll write about me as a person, and what got me here. Oh gosh, just typing that out is making me nervous. This may or may not be the most boring blogs for the next couple of weeks, we will just have to see.

A reason it’s so hard for me to blog everyday, is that I have a family member that i have not seen in 9 months and  I should really be writing to them instead of telling strangers my life story. I don’t do well with distance, and i don’t do well with missing people and writing my emotions towards them out on paper. I find it really difficult to even produce words for my letters at time. But honestly, this blogging stuff really helps me get through things. I just listen to some good tunes and let my fingers take over on the keyboard. I don’t really talk about that personal of things either, mostly me just blabbing on and on my mundane every day events. I swear this week I will start busting out a lot more blogs, and it will definitely be more consistent.


I don’t sleep, I can’t sleep, I love sleep, I hate sleep.



I’m so frustrated that I can’t get to sleep at night. I don’t go to bed these days until 7ish, and i don’t fully understand why. It’s weird because I love to sleep, and once i am actually asleep, I get into such a cozy deep slumber. I just have such issues actually getting to sleep. My mind goes into over-drive once I have layed down for bed, and not even a good wholesome movie will help knock me out. I won’t take Benadryl, or any other sleeping medication, because they give me the most messed up, out there dreams. I would rather not sleep, than take a sleeping med. I don’t even do anything, i don’t go out or do anything significant that should be keeping me up all hours of the night. I swear I am a vampire, the only time i start to get tired, is when the sun is rising. I wouldn’t be complaining if i was actually a vampire, because then i would at least have some special skills. But since i am not an actual vamp, sleeping when the sun comes up, is a real lousy habit. Hopefully I will conduct a brilliant plan to get my body on at least a semi-decent sleeping schedule! Till then,  expect the most random, insomnia induced blogging for a while!

Earlier I watched the film “Welcome To The Riley’s.” Maybe it’s because I’m a Kristen Stewart fan, or maybe it’s because i appreciate a good film, but this movie was awesome. Now, it’s a little vulgare at times, and definitely not a comedy by any means, but it’s a beautifully written/directed movie. I really love Kristen Stewart’s role in this, and how she portrayed her character, it’s very convincing. I would definitely recommend this movie, if you like more independent, character pieces.

Is anyone out there?

I feel like I am completely uninteresting, and have nothing to say. I really feel like no one is reading my blogs, but myself. I’m trying desperately to come up with better ideas and clever things to say, but i feel like I am trying too hard. Today’s bog I am going to just talk, something i do well and not over think this blog. Wish me luck!

It’s monday, and I swear I was going to be productive, but the weather here isn’t permitting it. So instead today will be filled with me watching movies and downloading more music. I’m not really your average young woman in her 20’s, I don’t go out, I don’t party, and I’m not desperate to find love. I guess those things just really don’t do anything for me, I would rather stay home and watch wheel of fortune and Jeopardy with my sister and sister-in law. But this weekend I made a minor exception because my little sister Kay turned 18 and it was her first club experience. I had to go out to the clubs and watch out for Kay, plus i hadn’t been out “clubbing” in months and just wanted to dance off some stress. Now, clubs where I live here in Tampa (AKA TRAMPA)FL are not too classy, i mean some can be, but the one i went to isn’t at all. It’s mostly all really trendy people wearing basically nothing in 30 degree weather, and trying to hook up with anyone who will give them the time of day. This isn’t my type of place at all, I can’t handle men who disrespect women and can’t handle AT ALL women who disrespect themselves. Dancing up on every single guy that looks at you in the club appears desperate, not sexy. Urgh my generation is dooming this world, I swear.

Well today is uneventful, I’m going to be gluing myself to the television and I will be for sure blogging about one of my celeb favorite/doppelgänger Kristen Stewart. My sister and I are going to watch “Welcome To The Riley’s” and I’m highly anticipating this movie, so expect a full review tomorrow, along with my opinions on the Golden Globe’s that aired last night.

Believe what you will

I definitely believe that things happen for a reason, I also believe things don’t happen for reasons too.


“Have your adventures, make your mistakes, and choose your friends poorly — all these make for great stories.”
— Chuck Palahniuk

theres an APP for that

iPhones are taking over the world, one bad application at a time.

1. The ‘Grandma’ App- This application solely calls your grandma for you. there’s also one for grandpa, mom, dad, and my girl. My question is this:why do you need an app for that? don’t you already program your gma and gpa in your phone as that already?

2.Flashlight App- It lights up white…you can have that exact same effect on your iPhone by simply opening up an application.

3. iLick it iPhone App- what the hell…this application is not only unsanitary, but downright creepy. This app wants you to achieve to size zero as it encourages you to lick the screen whenever it flashes a sumptuous meal. I don’t understand this world anymore.

4.iFart App- makes fart noises. what happened to the good old whoopee cushion?

5.Blower App- makes the effect of blowing out birthday candles. SERIOUSLY? Technology is ruining birthday’s now too? cool.

6. The hold app- You have to press the ‘hold’ button for as long as you can. This app is actually considered a productivity application. I didn’t realize touching a screen for as long as you could count as productive.

7. Fit or Fugly app- this app judges you basically, by a picture of you. what the hell? these apps are blowing my mind.

what happend to encouragement?


8. The Moo Box- show’s pictures of animals and the sounds they make. I guess this is an okay app if you’re teaching your youngin’ animals.

9. simstapler app- I died laughing when i saw this application. So basically if you don’t have a stapler ready and handy, you can “practice” with this app. It does the simulations of a real stapler. WHY!? who needs to “practice” using a stapler, makes no sense.

10. Zit Picker 2– Not only is this app disgusting, but its $1.99. If you spend $2.00 on an app that picks invisible zits, you need help. That’s disgusting and flat-out wrong. it’s just wrong.

11. Zips App- This application gives you the chance to make zip and unzipping sounds, without doing the actual motion. I’m not sure why anyone would ever need this application. I wonder if the creators of this application had zipper fetishes? definitely not girlfriend’s, i can tell you that much.

12. The Proposal App- Oh my gosh. So basically this app pops up with “Will You Merry Me” on it. Oh that’s cool, the most important day in a man and womans life (aside from the actual wedding) and there’s an App for that. If you are planning on using this app when popping the big question, DON’T! This is the cheesiest, most impersonal way of ever proposing to someone. I would straight up slap a man if he proposed to me with this iPhone App.

13. My Lighter app- Okay, see, this app would just piss me off. Oh okay, I don’t have a lighter to light my cigarette, but it’s no big deal there’s a picture of a zippo on your iPhone! It’ll get your cig lit in no time!…really?

14.Throw your iPhone app- This application allows you to throw your phone up in the air, and it tells you the speed. This is just an accident waiting to happen.

15. You can ask your iPhone “am i drunk yet?” If you are feeling the urge to ask your phone that, you need to put the drinks down, and re-evalute yourself.